Go Now, You Are Forgiven

The curtain closes

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 07:30:31 GMT

I've got a new journal:middleoftheweek

I'll try to go through and add everyone to that journal, but if I missed you just go over and comment and I'll add you.

This is going to be my last entry on this journal. Things aren't the same as they used to be, and as much as I used to wish they would go back to normal, I'm not sure that's possible anymore, or if it's what I even truly want. I'm so much less insecure than I used to be. For the first time in my entire life I don't constantly belittle myself and question my value, and it's the most amazing feeling.

And in honor of the last post, I want to ask a favor of anyone reading this, and try to figure out where I stand with some of you. So if you'd like, just post in a comment and let me know.

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 07:42:24 GMT

San Francisco isn't that great. Sure, it's nice, but I'm not a city person. Give me suburbia any day. I really liked Berkley's campus though. I really want to apply there. I'd have to find a new major, because Creative Writing is only offered as a minor. Fuckers.

That reminds me of another subject that's been bothering me lately. Writing. Recently I've been wondering if that's really what I should be focusing on. No one reads fiction nowadays. Even if I had the talent, hypothetically speaking, the chances of me getting published or making a paying career of it are extremely unlikely. And even if I wasn't aiming to get published, I'd still want to get my work read(yeah, I know it said written, I wasn't paying attention), which would be nearly impossible. But then I start reading a good novel (namely, Neil Gaiman's Stardust, what I'm reading now), and I can't imagine spending my life doing anything else.

In other news: I went to this really big vintage clothing store. But everything was ridiculously expensive, so I bought myself the South Park movie instead.

In other(other?) news: Santa Cruz tomorrow.

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 23:03:27 GMT

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

Copied from Ali's LJ

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 00:25:07 GMT

"This is the problem with LJ, we all think we are so close, and we know nothing about each other. I'm going to rectify it. I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about.

Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.

So, go on, ask anything. I'm an open book. No seriously. Ask anything."

What she said.

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 09:09:42 GMT

Dinner tonight was fun. I hope everyone had a great time at Homecoming.

Then I came home, and it was just downhill from there, what with ma mere being a bitch and all.

It occurs to me that over the past month or so it has become so much easier for me to put on the happy face when I'm with company, the people who are important to me(of whom the numbers seem to be dwindling, by the way, for various reasons). But when I talk to people I don't know as well, it is easier for me to open up and talk about the shitty things in life. Odd, no?

In other news, Dispatch now one of my favorite bands. Woo! IM me and I'll send you a song or two.

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 04:31:16 GMT

There's a good chance I won't be joining you at Homecoming dinner Sunday night. I have to give my grade check to my mom tomorrow, and she says she'll probably take my license away if there are any Cs. Well, I have at least two Ds, and God knows how many Cs. Shitfuckcuntslip.

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 03:08:25 GMT

http://www.nanowrimo.org

The goal: Write a 50,000 word (roughly 175 pages) novel by midnight on November 30th. The starting time? Midnight last night.

I think I can do it. Anyone want to join me?

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 06:55:35 GMT

The Redskins lost, 28-14. Kerry wins.

In 70 years, it's never failed. That's 17 elections, folks.

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 01:13:59 GMT

The Washington Redskins play the Green Bay Packers tomorrow night. I hope everyone tunes in to at least hear the final score. Remember, Redskins win, incumbent stays. Redskins lose, challenger wins.

Closing night was last night, everyone did amazing. I'm still disgustingly bitter about not being involved, however. Emily's was a lot of fun. Not going to go over all of it, but I didn't vomit. That makes it a good night.

I'm quitting smoking, as of very soon.

I feel like I've been given another opportunity at something I'd, for the most part, given up on. Yeah, vague sentences, I know, but I'd rather not go into detail here.

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 20:55:50 GMT

I can't make a decision. On one hand, I know it will be fun and it's what I should do as a good friend, but on the other hand I know it will just be more difficult in the end.

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 05:01:40 GMT

Today was the first good day in a seemingly endless cycle of shitty ones. It takes so little to please me. Today wasn't even all that great as a whole, but one sentence redeemed this entire week, and one decision brightened my outlook on the next few.

But maybe I'm reading too far into things. Nothing like good old self-doubt, huh?

Oh yeah, and I did that LJ analyzer thingy. The most common word was 'I', and the 10th most common word was "me". Surprising?

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 05:03:14 GMT

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 02:36:42 GMT

"I still remember that morning when first I realized, you're 1,000 miles away and I can't hold you when you cry. I know you don't want to leave me when I call out to you, and I know you look to me when the world looks to you. And I'm never going to realize, I'm never going to understand, I'm always going to be this boy, I just want to be your man. And I'll hold you in my arms, I'll swear to God I'll never leave, just tell me that you're listening, just say that you believe me."

I've never heard a song that's described how I felt so well. Shit.

“It combines the charms of a Disneyland with the worst of the Soviet gulag prison camp,”

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 05:46:37 GMT

http://www.balticsww.com/stalin_world.htm

My dog > Your dog

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 04:37:30 GMT

Pictures removed because they stretched my page.

Yeah, he's cool. He needs a new name though. I was thinking Kip. Or maybe Kipper and Kip for short.

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 05:05:26 GMT

Tonight was interesting. Big political discussion, smaller religious discussion.

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 01:01:26 GMT

My car is fixed. The battery was faulty, but still under warranty so I got it replaced for free. That makes me incredibly happy. And my mom took it to get it washed, so it's all nice and clean.

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 00:54:12 GMT

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 06:49:36 GMT

I'm writing my article on the Hawaii trip. I can't decide on a headline. It's either "The Liloluna Experience"(only RC will get it) and "George and RC's Hawaiian Adventure."

What do you think?

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 03:51:10 GMT

I got a cell phone that works, so now you can call me if it pleases you.

Fuck the Myspace article, give me something else to write about. Quick, someone start throwing topics at me.

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 02:39:04 GMT

Alas, there will be no before-rehearsal escapades at my house this play season. Unless they give me Olsen. I fucking hope not.

I downloaded the new IV4K song off their website. It's great.

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 07:13:58 GMT

I'm a little tipsy. By a little tipsy, I mean I'm a little drunk.

This is going to be a good year. Basically because I'm more or less clinically retarded, and am enrolled in easy classes. Everyone asks me what I want to do with my life. I don't know. They ask me if I want to continue a career in theatre, I tell them "No, I'm not talented enough." They as me if I want to persue a career in writing. Ha. That makes me laugh. Sure, I can write, but I can't really. Not anything of substance. I just make shit up and put it on paper, a literary version of my life. But in the end I don't really care. Maybe I'll get blindsided by a bus tomorrow morning, and then it really wouldn't matter what I planned to do with the rest of my life. And then maybe people will look back on my life, and realize the usual philisophical bullshit doesn't apply.

I had more to say, but the cat distracted me and I kind of forgot.

For my own reference

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 16:16:29 GMT

-Voodoo Glow skulls, Pistol Grip, Los Kung Fu Monkeys, Destruction Made Simple: October 17th, The Galaxy

-Catch 22, Mustard Plug, Bid D And The Kids Table, Suburban Legends, Dan Potthast: October 21st, Soma in San Diego

-Mustard Plug, Catch 22, Big D And The Kids table, Suburban Legends, Dan Potthast: October 24th, The Troubadour in West Hollywood

-English Beat, The Untouchables, Gia's Fix, Thousand Pound: November 13th, The Galaxy

-Voodoo Glow Skulls, Big D And The Kids Table, The F-Ups: December 12th, House of Blues Anaheim, 14th, The Roxy, 15th, The Wheelhouse

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 06:23:40 GMT

Well, curiosity killed the baby.
http://www.nixtro.com/pentagon121.swf

Fucknuts

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 16:02:00 GMT

I transferred out of French. But, instead of the best religion class ever, 0 block Braden, now I have Lape first block, and 0 block biology with Anderson.

Hey, at least I didn't get principles.